i make these decisions not thinking of the consequences. and thats how i want to live. it seems so nice. to live without worrying. but when the day comes and the consequences have caught up with me. there is no need to worry cus my life has already became a mess. Sometimes i wonder how i should live. and if im fucking up my life if i continue the way i am. i should be really happy right now. but im still holding on to something that i will never get.