i make these decisions not thinking of the consequences. and thats how i want to live. it seems so nice. to live without worrying. but when the day comes and the consequences have caught up with me. there is no need to worry cus my life has already became a mess. Sometimes i wonder how i should live. and if im fucking up my life if i continue the way i am. i should be really happy right now. but im still holding on to something that i will never get.

i concentrate on my breathing so much sometimes, that the anxiety returns

i wrote this on this exact day last year

im not the girl you fell in love with in the summer breeze

i changed for your mother and your father, i quit smoking when you were in Argentina

i drove countless and countless of miles because it always better to be the one that shows love too much instead of not enough

its always better to be the one in the relationship that loves more

even if it means that your heart breaks more in the end