i tell myself day after day to keep moving forward

i think thats how i wake up on hot mornings when the sheets stick to my legs and the oscillating fan stops doing its job and is pointed at the wall instead of at my bed. Maybe i'll get myself up and go get some coffee and do some homework ive been putting off, or maybe ill go downstairs and turn on the coffee machine, lay on the couch (maybe fall asleep), then get some coffee go out on my patio and have what should be my only cigarette for the day since the bronchitis still hasnt gone away

i tell myself day after day to keep moving forward

i think thats how i made it through one weekend without drinking. No one calls you if you stay out of town and make it really apparent that you are doing so by posting a straight-forward facebook status saying "not coming into town this weekend". Or if you can't withstand temptation you completely turn off your phone and spend the weekend at you apartment with your roommate and her boyfriend doing things and tagging along to places that they usually go to. And your friends will get mad and tell you in really non-sympathetic messages when you turn your phone on on monday that they understand what you are going through and that you missed out on a kick-ass weekend. Even though you know that they cant even remember what they did.

i tell myself day after day to keep moving forward

i think thats how i can pretend that your not the only boy i think about.