POS

you have the face of someone i partied with a week and then never saw again
you left a little token for memory in my bedroom
something i'll tac on my wall and smile when i see it, because it reminds me of how rediculous that week of summer was
i have few regrets, some of which i try to decide to who i should confide in (cus its not real until someone else knows, and can keep bringing it up)
ill listen to your belief of how the world revolves around you
ill agree and shake my head up and down, because i don't believe in much, and i like to make you feel good about yourself
im trying to decide who to confide in tommorow, cus i feel like none of it ever happened
but i have this pit in my stomach thats telling me otherwise
i want the emptyness to fill with sympathy, sympathetic sorrow
you care enough to take everything ive given to you and happily walk away
you have the facial expressions of someone i fell for after i got the slight amount of attention that i needed to feel good about myself.
your were a piece of shit,
and the last night i saw you i was a jerk
and now im the piece of shit becuase i stood up for myself

why do i get attached so fast?

this has been the best few weeks of summer i could of asked for
only to be followed by a month in florence, Italy.
everythings going my way, im not letting anything get me down

that was a feeling way too familiar.

light

the mistake was kissing that space on your neck right below your ear, that made you smile and close your eyes slowly.

i could feel the corners of your mouth turn up on the tip of my nose

and it made me think that you desired my love, and that my passion for you was enough to carry us through anything that the dynamics of life threw at us

it makes me feel better now to think that you never wanted me

so that i don't sit and drink my coffee thinking about how my crazy antics drove you away

i remember how you used to use ending our relationship as leverage

cus you knew how much i cared about you.

maybe the sun will shine on me tomorrow

most likely the sun will shine on the sidewalk where you walk

life sometimes works that way

it makes me feel better to write you emails and save them in the drafts folder

the mistake was falling in love with your family dynamics, and the way the light shined on your patio furniture and reflected into your house as the the sun was setting

maybe the sun will shine on me tomorrow and reflect into the house i call home

most likely the light will reflect off a mirror and hurt my eyes

life sometimes works that way

i have been writing alot lately, though i haven't posted anything i have written..it all seems so juvenile. I feel like i am walking backwards, everything takes a little more thinking then it usually does.

hope everyone had as good of a weekend as i did. it officially feels like summertime ;)

there's nothing worse then feeling a fake joy driven by adrenaline thats driven by annoyances.

You said that all i talk about is the tattoo i want to get and how much i want to travel. and you said that i just sit and don't do shit about it.

the last one is by yours truelly

im so ready for it to be the weekend. this week is going so slow.

my anxiety is super bad this week. i think because its time for finals and i am starting to think about all the changes that are coming in the next couple months. im constantly tapping my foot and trying to calm myself down.

i have a lot of exciting things coming my way in the next couple months, but it is a lot of change. and i don't do well with change

o well. ill survive.